Post by Vulpes Demonica on Jan 12, 2016 21:36:32 GMT
I have a very unstable work history.
Most of it is due to drama from paranoia of everyone being against me, talking behind my back, or just me being unwilling to lay down and take abuse (or neglect) from customers or the company/boss I'm working for. I usually can't last more than 3 months at any job, and I've been all over the place and tried many different types of jobs. I also try my hardest to look for independent jobs (like private contracting) with minimal contact with the public and minimal need to work with other people in groups.
When I work alone, I completely focus on my job and take it very seriously. I prefer environments that will just give me my assignment, the tools I need and then leave me alone and I guarantee everything will be done. I pride myself with being a fast learner and very hard worker, because what I do makes me feel good about myself. It makes me feel like I'm worth something.
The problem is I can't handle jobs where I have to deal with insults and idiots from the public. I snap very quickly. I also hate having to depend on coworkers in order to be able to do my job, because when they let me down, they drag me down with them because of their incompetence or laziness. I don't like when peopel at work try to start conversations with me and just wish they would shut up and do their jobs. I'd be a lot happier just wearing headphones and getting into my own groove of things. I also hate bosses who only like to come down on you whenever you do something wrong or "not good enough" without ever saying you did a good job at something. The acknowledgement and encouragement of my hard work is very important to me and is what I'm after and keeps me going, even more than just the money. If all I get is negative reinforcement, I end up losing motivation and stop caring about my job until I just start coming in late, leave early, call in sick a lot, start showing resistance/retaliation, or just flat out never show up again/quit.
If I force myself to just "deal with it" because I need the money, it starts to seriously eat at me until I have a massive breakdown either at home or at work (and this has happened a few times). I feel like I need to be on some form of disability, but I have no idea how this works or if I honestly do need to be on it. I feel like I can't function in any work setting, but I can't tell if I'm just being "lazy" or something. Either way, the very real problem I do have, is being unable to hold a job and this has caused me to be homeless in the past and fall into massive debt (like right now, too).
Anyone else deal with this and has successfully pursued a disability case?
Most of it is due to drama from paranoia of everyone being against me, talking behind my back, or just me being unwilling to lay down and take abuse (or neglect) from customers or the company/boss I'm working for. I usually can't last more than 3 months at any job, and I've been all over the place and tried many different types of jobs. I also try my hardest to look for independent jobs (like private contracting) with minimal contact with the public and minimal need to work with other people in groups.
When I work alone, I completely focus on my job and take it very seriously. I prefer environments that will just give me my assignment, the tools I need and then leave me alone and I guarantee everything will be done. I pride myself with being a fast learner and very hard worker, because what I do makes me feel good about myself. It makes me feel like I'm worth something.
The problem is I can't handle jobs where I have to deal with insults and idiots from the public. I snap very quickly. I also hate having to depend on coworkers in order to be able to do my job, because when they let me down, they drag me down with them because of their incompetence or laziness. I don't like when peopel at work try to start conversations with me and just wish they would shut up and do their jobs. I'd be a lot happier just wearing headphones and getting into my own groove of things. I also hate bosses who only like to come down on you whenever you do something wrong or "not good enough" without ever saying you did a good job at something. The acknowledgement and encouragement of my hard work is very important to me and is what I'm after and keeps me going, even more than just the money. If all I get is negative reinforcement, I end up losing motivation and stop caring about my job until I just start coming in late, leave early, call in sick a lot, start showing resistance/retaliation, or just flat out never show up again/quit.
If I force myself to just "deal with it" because I need the money, it starts to seriously eat at me until I have a massive breakdown either at home or at work (and this has happened a few times). I feel like I need to be on some form of disability, but I have no idea how this works or if I honestly do need to be on it. I feel like I can't function in any work setting, but I can't tell if I'm just being "lazy" or something. Either way, the very real problem I do have, is being unable to hold a job and this has caused me to be homeless in the past and fall into massive debt (like right now, too).
Anyone else deal with this and has successfully pursued a disability case?
