Post by morethanmydiagnoses on Nov 3, 2017 2:59:44 GMT
Hi all,
I want to stop taking medication but I don't know if it's safe. I was first put on meds in like 2012 or 2013 and since then, I have taken everything religiously. I may have missed once or twice at the very beginning, and I've occasionally missed the evening dose of the one med I was taking twice a day, but it had been years since I had missed my morning cocktail. Then, yesterday, I woke up extremely late for work and ran out the door without taking anything. I expected some sort of disaster, but instead I felt a million times better. I felt like I had just come out of hell and I didn't know how long I'd been there because I couldn't remember anything before it. On the medicine, I felt so overwhelmingly tired all the time that even after loading up on coffee and energy drinks all day, I still wanted to curl up and sleep on the floor. I would bug my eyes all the way out to keep them from closing. I was barely aware of anything going on around me because I was putting all my energy into staying awake. I got like nine hours of sleep at night and drank a constant stream of caffeine, energy drinks, and ginseng all to no avail. Without the medicine, however, I woke up after sleeping for seven hours and drank no energy drinks at all and my body was perfectly happy to be awake. I could actually function and know what was going on and feel happy and not be in constant torment. I had thought I was just lazy and unmotivated but without the medicine, I could actually imagine things that I would rather do besides sleep!
And I know my psychopharmacologist is just going to tell me to take the meds at night, but since the effects lasted ALL DAY, is it really reasonable to expect that they will be worn off in eight hours if I take them before bed? I forsee it being awfully hard to get out of bed in the morning! Besides, I'm angry and I don't trust the doctor anymore because she gave me drugs that caused massive needless suffering and lost productivity. Without the meds, who knows how much farther along I'd be in my career by now. Besides, all medicines cause crazy side effects. I've suffered all kinds of side effects, such as lactation, extreme weight gain, high cholesterol inappropriate for my age, high triglycerides and more, and I've read that drugs can cause even more side effects such as hair loss and diabetes. All drugs are unnatural and will cause bad things to happen that I often don't even realize are happening because of the medication, like how I didn't know it was the meds making me be totally zonked out all the time. It's like the meds are making my body age way faster than it was supposed to. And the doctors are like, "Every drug is different" when they all do SOMETHING horrible!
On the other hand, I just got out of two inpatient hospitalizations plus some PHPs, which all lasted a total of almost two months and I'm scared I'll crash and burn again. I'm mad that my body is being destroyed by chemicals that are not natural but I don't want to go down the toilet again either.
What are your thoughts? Should I tell my doctor that I want to taper down on everything until I'm not taking anything at all? Have medicines been worth the side effects in your experience?
Thanks,
Helen
I want to stop taking medication but I don't know if it's safe. I was first put on meds in like 2012 or 2013 and since then, I have taken everything religiously. I may have missed once or twice at the very beginning, and I've occasionally missed the evening dose of the one med I was taking twice a day, but it had been years since I had missed my morning cocktail. Then, yesterday, I woke up extremely late for work and ran out the door without taking anything. I expected some sort of disaster, but instead I felt a million times better. I felt like I had just come out of hell and I didn't know how long I'd been there because I couldn't remember anything before it. On the medicine, I felt so overwhelmingly tired all the time that even after loading up on coffee and energy drinks all day, I still wanted to curl up and sleep on the floor. I would bug my eyes all the way out to keep them from closing. I was barely aware of anything going on around me because I was putting all my energy into staying awake. I got like nine hours of sleep at night and drank a constant stream of caffeine, energy drinks, and ginseng all to no avail. Without the medicine, however, I woke up after sleeping for seven hours and drank no energy drinks at all and my body was perfectly happy to be awake. I could actually function and know what was going on and feel happy and not be in constant torment. I had thought I was just lazy and unmotivated but without the medicine, I could actually imagine things that I would rather do besides sleep!
And I know my psychopharmacologist is just going to tell me to take the meds at night, but since the effects lasted ALL DAY, is it really reasonable to expect that they will be worn off in eight hours if I take them before bed? I forsee it being awfully hard to get out of bed in the morning! Besides, I'm angry and I don't trust the doctor anymore because she gave me drugs that caused massive needless suffering and lost productivity. Without the meds, who knows how much farther along I'd be in my career by now. Besides, all medicines cause crazy side effects. I've suffered all kinds of side effects, such as lactation, extreme weight gain, high cholesterol inappropriate for my age, high triglycerides and more, and I've read that drugs can cause even more side effects such as hair loss and diabetes. All drugs are unnatural and will cause bad things to happen that I often don't even realize are happening because of the medication, like how I didn't know it was the meds making me be totally zonked out all the time. It's like the meds are making my body age way faster than it was supposed to. And the doctors are like, "Every drug is different" when they all do SOMETHING horrible!
On the other hand, I just got out of two inpatient hospitalizations plus some PHPs, which all lasted a total of almost two months and I'm scared I'll crash and burn again. I'm mad that my body is being destroyed by chemicals that are not natural but I don't want to go down the toilet again either.
What are your thoughts? Should I tell my doctor that I want to taper down on everything until I'm not taking anything at all? Have medicines been worth the side effects in your experience?
Thanks,
Helen