Charlie
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Post by Charlie on Feb 14, 2016 13:09:02 GMT
Suicide / Overdose TW
Last night I was so close to overdosing again... like I haven't felt that bad in ages and everyone knew because I was venting about it on my personal twitter where my friends follow me... But no one cared? I got precisely 0 messages. And it's ironic and painful because I talked myself out of it by telling myself that people would miss me, friends and family would miss me. But then not one single person reached out to me?
So what'll happen next time I feel like that? How can I talk myself down when I know that really, no one will miss me, at least not enough to send me a message or ask if I'm okay?
And my stomach is in agony. Thanks. Thanks this is just what I need.
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Anna
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Post by Anna on Feb 15, 2016 0:32:21 GMT
cw: suicide
Last night was pretty bad in regards to my mental health, I was so depressed and desperate, I tried to cheer myself up by chatting with a close friend but as soon as we stopped talking my mood dropped again. It was a hard night, crying myself to sleep, trying to comfort me because no one cares about me, trying to think about anything but suicide, trying to fight my negative thoughts back. It was awful. I woke up feeling like a corpse and I still feel terrible, I'm so alone.
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Post by robyn on Feb 15, 2016 18:01:21 GMT
CW: sex
I feel guilty that my medication makes me uninterested in sex. I feel guilty that it prevents me from having any sort of build up irt to pleasure. I feel guilty that I'm unable to orgasm and never have been able to, even before this medication screwed with my sex drive. I don't want to be on a medication that's interfering with my sex life. I want to be able to enjoy sex again, but I'm scared to be off medication. I'm so freaking frustrated with this whole thing, which doesn't help at all with being able to enjoy things.
And...I know that my husband understands. But I also know that he's feeling inadequate. I hate that I'm making him feel that way.
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Post by Mea on Feb 17, 2016 19:32:33 GMT
All the time people tell me how lucky I am to have my boyfriend. I can't say I disagree.
But just once I'd like for him to be considered the lucky one.
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Anna
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Post by Anna on Feb 18, 2016 15:45:19 GMT
I went out with this girl to watch a movie and I had a great time and she seems to be into me which it's great because she's really nice, kind and funny. However, I haven't told her about my mental illnesses and while I have an idea on what and how I want to tell her, I'm still terrified she's gonna tell me it's too much for her, or too weird, or too whatever and... I want to scream lmao. I'm frightened of rejection and abandonment but I'm trying to prepare myself for her telling me my mental illnesses are something she doesn't want to be a part of.
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Charlie
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Post by Charlie on Feb 18, 2016 16:38:09 GMT
I don't care about anything anymore. I feel so bad, not been to school in two weeks and I tell myself that it's because of anxiety that I can't cope and I'm not well enough but the truth is I just don't fucking care. I don't want to go in. I could if I wanted to, but getting out of bed before 12pm, getting dressed and going out is just not something I'm into. I don't care.
It looks like laziness to everyone outside my head but it's not... if someone could give me something that gave me that spark back I'd jump at the opportunity, I just don't care enough to do anything now. I don't know, maybe it is laziness. I don't feel anything.
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Post by sas on Mar 19, 2016 23:00:35 GMT
I think I should kill myself tonight. I have no one.
I've been battling fr a year and still no one cares.
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Post by robyn on Mar 26, 2016 4:52:41 GMT
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I just screwed up in another forum that I participate in. I didn't go against any actual rules, but I messed up with some etiquette things and now people are going to be mad at me. kgfncvb;xjnfdsl;v There goes my anxiety, lol.
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Post by sicfucxgrrrl on Aug 19, 2016 0:26:49 GMT
This is an old thread but whatteverrrr.... I finally found some affordable therapy and access to meds so I'm on a substantial cocktail now but the therapy is questionable. I was with this one therapist for like 2-3 months and she called and told me she was quitting, so she was replaced with another therapist who I have to get comfortable with all over again. But a few months ago, just after the shooting in Orlando, I went in for appt in my usual dark mood that the world is so EFF'd up and I'm over it, people are assholes, the future is bleak as hell. The therapist lady starts going off on some conspiracy rant saying that all the victims shown on the news were all "crisis actors" and Newtown never really happened....and on and on..... and seriously this chick is supposed to be my therapist !!!!! wtf I walked out on the session. REDIC!!
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