Post by borderlineshitstorm on Mar 11, 2016 2:09:11 GMT
So, I am in DBT, and have been for a while. I have yet to meet a Borderline who suffers not only from low episodes, but high ones as well. For example, today I was peeling potatoes, and my girlfriend told me she didn't want me to make a grocery list because of how i was acting a bit too excitable and hyper. Probably a little after that I had an emotion crash. I am not on stabilizers, and my mood is literally affected by EVERYTHING. My mood swings can be so extreme I believe I have the best life, and no one can stop me from anything. I have impulses in which are seemingly kind and loving, then I hit something that urks me just a little, then I have some very messed up impulses which are self destructive. I originally got my mental health evaluation, thinking I had bipolar disorder, which then lead me into learning I had BPD etc. I know BPD can be co-morbid with other illnesses, however (I am polyamorous) My gf and bf (both suffer from mental illness and are quite intelligent) both agree that I (at least right now) don't have Bipolar. I honestly believe I don't, but the level that these mood swings go, on top of the level of frustration it causes, I really dont know if its completly BPD. I don't want to overanalyze. Anyone have the same experience?
I experience regular high moods similar to watch you describe. Even if they're not full blown manic episodes, they might be hypomanic episodes. Those aren't uncommon among people with BPD. It can stem solely from BPD.
One of the major differences between Borderline and Bipolar moods is the duration and frequency. Borderline mood swings cycle much more rapidly. I believe Bipolar mood swings last weeks or months. Borderline moods last minutes to days, although they can be longer.
From the checklist:
"My emotions are incredibly unstable, and I change moods often (sometimes within minutes), feeling things more intensely than others seem to."
"I have affectivity problems and difficulty controlling the range and intensity of my emotional responses."
I completely used to get this 100%! some of the most dangerous things I've done are in the highs, not the lows. that feeling of being on top of the world and invincible! I often used to end up shoplifting in my highs because I felt like I was better than everyone else and I proved it by taking what I wanted without getting caught so I deserved it! very strange, but sadly I haven't really the highs so much in the last couple of years. but the lows aren't as bad either so, swings and roundabouts I guess. but yes, very relatable!