Post by orlando on May 9, 2017 1:31:18 GMT
(CW: mention of suicide attempt)
Hi. You can call me Orlando. My gender is irrelevant (they/them) and I'm 22 years old. I was professionally diagnosed with BPD a few weeks ago, but I've been self-diagnosed for a while before that. I was in denial for the better part of a year because BPD seemed "too much" and I didn't want to accept that I was all that fit the diagnostic criteria. Accepting the social part of BPD is the worst for me, because I always thought of myself as a person who had healthy relationships with others. And then I realized that I attempted suicide twice because important people in my life left me, and that's definitely not healthy.
Aside from BPD, I'm also diagnosed with major depression and social anxiety disorder, and self-diagnosed with OCD (I will seek a professional diagnosis for that soon). I'm in therapy and I take a cocktail of different medications. In total, I've taken over 10 different medications for my mental illnesses and I'm profoundly hopeless that any therapy works for me. But it's either that or going to the ER every two weeks because I'm suicidal. I also struggle a lot with the psychotic symptoms of BPD, so much that I think my doctor should consider a separated psychosis diagnosis for me. I've had two psychotic breaks last year, and two others in years past. Lately I've been displaying mild delusions and hallucination and sometimes I can't sleep because of those delusions.
I'm here hoping to make acquaintances and having someone to talk to that understands what I'm going through.
Hi. You can call me Orlando. My gender is irrelevant (they/them) and I'm 22 years old. I was professionally diagnosed with BPD a few weeks ago, but I've been self-diagnosed for a while before that. I was in denial for the better part of a year because BPD seemed "too much" and I didn't want to accept that I was all that fit the diagnostic criteria. Accepting the social part of BPD is the worst for me, because I always thought of myself as a person who had healthy relationships with others. And then I realized that I attempted suicide twice because important people in my life left me, and that's definitely not healthy.
Aside from BPD, I'm also diagnosed with major depression and social anxiety disorder, and self-diagnosed with OCD (I will seek a professional diagnosis for that soon). I'm in therapy and I take a cocktail of different medications. In total, I've taken over 10 different medications for my mental illnesses and I'm profoundly hopeless that any therapy works for me. But it's either that or going to the ER every two weeks because I'm suicidal. I also struggle a lot with the psychotic symptoms of BPD, so much that I think my doctor should consider a separated psychosis diagnosis for me. I've had two psychotic breaks last year, and two others in years past. Lately I've been displaying mild delusions and hallucination and sometimes I can't sleep because of those delusions.
I'm here hoping to make acquaintances and having someone to talk to that understands what I'm going through.